My mind now

So fatigue , a lot of trouble , a lot of stuff , a lot of question we need to solve right now.
I am 18 years old in 2012. Time flies fast ~ A golden years? Oh~ I just wonder how I use this few month wisely? Or just waste this half years? be a baby always call mama * ? : (
I have no direction , I lost my way to choose a course that I interest and I worry . REGRET~ don't keep appearing on my mind , I am afraid. Just chat with a friend and realize rich people really dont need think so much things.

LOL , How good if I choose whatever college that I like or even oversea . I am crazy i know. Money cant buy everything but it s really important. Reality , this world will show you no money no talk. For sure I am not a grade A student. The result is waiting me to FACE it! regret ? guilty? Spm , I have put effort but I know that not enough . You just put actual effort for ? few month? Ridiculous , i know.
Actually I don't know what exactly I interest in , friends all take about business & accounting . Me?
My future , seems like so far to me. I want a brilliant one (everyone want it) , but what I pay for it?
Some fellow have intake in their college and start in this week , why I still staying in the house and typing a blog post alone here? what a dumb life.
Chance needed us to get it find it and appreciate.
Keeping searching some useful information and I need some advice too about college.
But I have no idea even those!


BIG BIG head now = [  need someone to talk with me and understand me. and who willing?
2.30 am is time to sleep, Good Night