30.3.2010 (tuesday)

Many things goes to us recently .. we are keep growth up , every things may changed . have to try to accept the new life in the new year. It is the time to learn more from every thing that happened even those bad or happiness .
I am back =) to here.. blogging! have a lots of thing to share here.. where should i start from.. =|
Do you feeling tired of pretending? i am ~ but why should you do that? because i don't want to lose you such as a friend.. I said to stop and endure but i changed my mind again , i cant take any action because that is also your freedom to say any thing but not without thinking of others feeling..I am blaming you . just let me said and scold enough personally , that is the great consolation for me .. I am not scolding you or even fight with you in facing . because i am not the previous me the childish that just will talk nonsense stubborn me.. i am trying to change the better more ..
after heard what you said we are not straightly to think what to scold you next is thinking our self is it really we done wrongly? but you will never know how sad was us how hurt was it .. how much the tears shown .. but i hope you would never know because i don't need any sympathetic sight to look on me .. actually what is wrong? that all you said is definitely ? why do not you try to listen to us ? every side diff thing , i know that ..
Have to take a second often to control my self and arrange my mood .. someone will said why you so care about it you can just pull off the face with xxx ? it is so easy to say out what you like , when turn on you , you would never know how to do the correctly decision, that is so HARD for me! Do you think that i so love to act on nothing and keep smile to talk with you? actually i hate it much that people said me fake .. i am not willing that
friends..
think back that we were having sweet memories when we are primary school .. our childhood without scheming .. the purest child ♥ so sweet .. sigh*
but we have to be mature now and beware of every things .. that my dad told me be carefull all the time don't look the nicely face you could don't know how black was it heart.. i am doing this twenty four hours what he told.. how terrible was this world now..


end at 12.45 am my word ♥ lyn